I avoid it.  I avoid the situation.  I avoid any kind of problem. 

How long can i avoid this feeling? untill it completely overtakes me, to where i cant control it any longer?

I can only be strong right?  how strong can i be untill i break? 

How strong will the feeling be? how long will it last? How long will this happiness last?  Lets hope forever.  I could die like this and be happy with where i am.