January 2011
3 posts
October 2010
1 post
I feel like im being forced to move out of my...
Most people wopuld call that being kicked out. Its not like that, just all of my things are gonna be sholved in a box in a corner of the room. Not the same… hmmph
Life has been pretty dandy, i have two jobs, an amazing boyfriend, my family are slowly being okay with us back together, FINALLY!
But, i feel like there should be more, more coming, more excitment, more thrill, where did the...
August 2010
2 posts
Please tell me when this all end, so i can be sane...
Hes a fuck up, shes just dumb, ones a nosy bitch, and the other is the almighty fixer of fuckedupfuckers, But you, you babe, you’re the right one, the recognizing of the wrong, “who am i? to tell someone if something is right or wrong, thats not on me.” you say every hour of everyday, i hate being in this, you’re lucky i would die without you .
I miss you more then you think, and this pain keeps getting to me. It just grows stronger and stronger as the hours grow longer, its come to the point, that i cant think, These memories are dead, and lost in my head, cant think of words to speak. Just so much to say, How did it end this way? Is it my turn to pay? i think. The silence just grow, and no body knows the way this is killing me,the...
June 2010
2 posts
i fucking hate you
(via righteousben)
I fuckin love you
6.6
sup new life?
May 2010
2 posts
IS excited!
For her last day of high school ever! ill be completely freeeee!
Can you believe...
How much shit me and Zachary have gone through? Do you even realize? The non stop roller coaster or lives have been like ever since we have met. I love him to death. I’d die for him i swear. He’s my best fucking friend. I’m so lucky to still be around, I’m sorry Zachary.
April 2010
7 posts
I want to die, i wish i could hate you, i wish i...
I cant take this pain. This feeling, a feeling...
Four fuckin Twenty! Hell Yeah :)
Dude im drunk
With my best fucking friend zachary! i lovelovelove him :)
Lets get fucked up.
Life is so much easier that way. Im always happy.
Is this the destiny that follows me now? With the lover that knows me so well. & forever shall we spend, learning and learning. & forever shall i feel the passion burning.
i have alot on my plate
But he makes me forget all my problems. Even if we have speed bumps in the road. We always find our way back. :) Happy 6 months! I love you baby :)
March 2010
6 posts
So many things
That i wish i could say, wish i could scream. but it seems like every time i open my big mouth, i seem to make things bad or even worse. You’d go crazy if you knew all of my thoughts. I don’t mean to make things so backwards. Upside down. Inside out. Maybe its just best, if i don’t say anything at all anymore. i’m sorry.
love love love
It does exist.
This wall is stronger than ever.
I avoid it. I avoid the situation. I avoid any kind of problem.
How long can i avoid this feeling? untill it completely overtakes me, to where i cant control it any longer?
I can only be strong right? how strong can i be untill i break?
How strong will the feeling be? how long will it last? How long will this happiness last? Lets hope forever. I could die like this and be happy with...
I let the form of jealously substitute my mind for...
never again.
February 2010
3 posts
i always somehow knew i would be the one to hurt you. it sucks in the end that this is true. That at this moment i live without you. But is this right? is this real? all this pain that he feels? deep i inside i just know, that i really got to let him go.
We havent even met yet, but you got me begging for more. Please ease my curiousity. And let me learn. Are you going to make that impossible?
Im starting to write alot again. Kinda like i used too, but this time around im not sad. It’s a good feeling. :)
January 2010
11 posts
I feel like a zombie i always do when i take my...
DudE! You packed that bowl so much it should be...
(via zacharypatrick)
I love us :) lolz
I've fallen deeper then i have ever and will ever
Who knew my first time ever going to the hookah bar only to find out that the owner would be late to open the doors, that i would find the guy I’d want to spend forever with? He pretty much is perfection for me. He completes everything I’ve been missing, and fills every hole that was left. I cant even describe the look in my eyes and the feeling in my bones that i get every time i...
December 2009
18 posts
Being control.
Wont work any longer
I never wanted things to be like this. Only quick.
im being truthful now.
I’m scared
cold
very very cold..
sup?
with two p’s.
emptiness
I'm ready to run, but scared to go, the answers...
My life is getting fucked up. Over that same bitch...
FUCKTHISSHIT.
No im not going there. You said you wouldnt hang out with her. So when you told me that i thought you ment it and when i mean by mean it is that you wouldnt ask anymore either. Maybe it upsets me huh? Im sorry i dont like the fact that your ex girl friend is always taking time out of her day of a weekend to fucking drive up to your fucking house to see if your fucking there. I guess im crazy...
The stress is finally in control
Everything is at peace again.
Im so excited for this week to be OVER!!!!!
i hate it. this project and the ACT has me sooo stressed.
:)
But im happy.
Hey kirstin do you still need that job??? cause i know where you could work. If you have a ride!!!!
text me!
And then we'd both go down together.
Ben is crazyyyyy lmao
